I'm not sure what, specifically, set off this latest round of self-destructive behaviour. But I seem to have gone beyond simple gluttony to self-loathing.
I met with my counselor lat week for the first time since the beginning of the year and admitted things I had on been suspecting. I'm really angry with myself. I have officially gained back half of what I had lost.
I am a bad example to everyone, including myself. They say you cannot unlearn things, but I have been giving it my best.
So, because I am not exactly upbeat right now and I need to reset everything (and not just say I am). I am putting my blogging for this site on a sort-of hiatus.
If I truly have a break-through or really go back down the road where I need to be, I will post. For now I just feel like I am a drag and downer, who wants to read that?
Thank you to everyone who has been supportive. I will be back when I can be that way again for myself.
Yours in appreciation, Kate
I'm sorry you are going on hiatus. I enjoy reading your blog and look forward to your return!
ReplyDeleteSometimes it takes more courage to stay and write about the exploration than to leave. Not to be cliche but its about the journey not the destination. Hoping you find the answers you're looking for.
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