"I'm tired."

No one can whine like I can, at least internally. Publicly I put on an "I can do anything" face and plod on. But, behind the scenes, I constantly question myself. Tonight was one of those nights.

It was 7:15 p.m. and I was fresh from helping with a problem at work. It was time to finally cram in a brief workout before working some more and then finally getting to go home for dinner. I dressed and headed for the door, but in my head the whining began, "I'm tired", "It's been a long weekend", "You should take an easy walk, you've earned it". The voice is not Luci by the way, she is far more seductive with her ideas on how to stop my downward trend in weight, it usually involves food.

Well, I let the voice linger at the back of my brain and started walking. I was going about 3 miles and hour for the first couple of blocks and then I met up with this couple who was out walking. It seemed to bother them that they had to share the sidewalk, so I decided to speed up and pass them and give them their space.

But they sped up too. And then the competitive side of me kicked in. I threw on the burners and passed them (flew past really) and kept going. Inside the whiner was like, "Okay, you're half a block ahead, that's good, now slow down". LOL. No way, the adrenaline had officially kicked in.

I ended up doing 2 miles in 26 minutes. Sometimes I amuse myself.

But what I really learned is, I have to step out the door, no matter how I feel. My body will take care of the rest.

Best always, Ms_H
Weight - 173 pounds

Overweight

I weighed in this morning.

I lost 3 pounds this week! That brings my weight to 173 and my total weight loss to 87 pounds. It also allowed me to meet one of my long term goals. My BMI now says I am "overweight" instead of "obese" or worse yet, where I started, "morbidly obese".

I am overweight.

And I am damn thrilled! LOL.

Now the next goals...

Short term - get to 170, because it's an even number. Then get to 160. The later has two points of significance - that will be my 100 pound mark AND it is what I weighed at the start of my senior year of high school. That note is important because those pictures were the last I liked of myself.

Long term - 145, that's where I go from "overweight" to "normal weight". How bizarre to even be thinking of that in terms of accomplishing it soon. It's just 28 pounds away. It's also just 10 pounds away from my original ultimate goal of 135.

That potentially means, that barring another wicked plateau, (and assuming I keep losing an average of 2 pounds a week) I could reach my original goal by the end of November. I can almost taste that victory, but...

You may have noticed I keep saying "original goal" in reference to 135. As I look at my body, I see more than 38 pounds left to lose. So now the plan is to get to 135 and reassess with a trainer what's next.

I know, I know. For the moment just concentrate on getting there.

Best always, Ms_H
Weight - 173 pounds