Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Looking at the Bottom

Yesterday hurt a lot. Mentally, physically, emotionally. It all felt like too much.

Exhaustion, anger, depression. All effects of my life out of control.

Too much work, which I can't change because everyone is working hard - we all need our jobs.

The cracked heart that I have only just admitted I have.

The lack of a life.

My depression sneaking back in.

My health sliding.

I realized this afternoon, I don't have control over some of this. But I do have control over the last two. Gratefully I was on the treadmill when I came to this conclusion. And I had already called about a counseling appointment.

The nice thing now is that when I get near bottom I recognize it.

Yours in health, Kate

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