On Sundays recently I have shared a story of inspiration. Someone who has impressed me with their journey to health. As I began contemplating today's I wandered over to my sister-in-law Annette's blog, just to check-up on her. I found a post that not only represented me but made me realize - one of my greatest inspirations is right under my nose.
Annette has lost over 100 pounds now. She has done it slowly, painstakingly and the right way - changing food habits and adding exercise. But like me, she is also human. She has faced all of the foibles anyone faces as they try to lose 40% or more of their body weight.
Her latest post, here, sums up some of my concerns.
Only it also made me finally put in writing my biggest one - I am spiraling. I am beginning to justify and even sneak food again. My food addiction is controlling me again and that is not o.k.
It also brings to mind what I tell people all the time - being a food addict is the worst addiction. Unlike alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, gambling - you can't just go cold turkey. You have to eat to live, literally.
I keep talking about going back to basics. Food wise I have, except that stupid food table at the back of my office building - it has become the bane of my existence. I seem to lose control when I get near it. I don't blame the people who bring in the food, they don't make me eat it.
I have to get back to repeating my mantra - "I don't believe in willpower, I believe in self-respect; I respect myself too much to eat that." I refuse to lose my self-respect, that's how I ended up weighing 260 pounds. So, it's time to lose the food.
And I will use Annette as my inspiration.
Yours in health, Kate